Flash Back Part 16

Sorry guys for not updating you for a week... It just happened that I’ve got sick =’(

Thank God I’m better now...

So let’s continue, at the end of my last flash back, I told you guys that Chad’s Family already knew about our relationship and thank God because they accepted for who I am. They didn’t judge me for what kind of girl I am besides the fact that I stalked away from my family.

And like any relationship we’ve been through in different situations and trials. One of these was about Chad’s Uncle and Auntie. There were times that I became jobless so for us to have money. Chad and I were the one who will help his mother in washing their clothes and then his mother will pay us so that we can have a source of income. 

That’s the time when I started to join a networking business. It’s an international networking business which is known as DXN or Daxen International Inc. I’ve got the first managerial position... Well it’s a good networking and it’s not pyramiding. I enjoyed this networking so much, I became a leader and had a chance to lead a large group of people who were older than me and yet they respect me so much... I earned money from this career... I recruited my close friends because I really want to help them to lift up from poverty but of course not all people can be rich in joining a networking business and that’s what happened to me... I was not successful with this path and it really is hard for me to see that I became a failure and my friends also failed to reach their dreams in doing this networking business. It really breaks my heart... I thought that it was my entire fault that’s why my friends failed too... But my real friends really understood my situation... They never blamed me for their failure in that networking business that we’ve shared...

So let’s go back with Chad’s uncle... He started to get jealous because he is complaining that he is the one who cooks food for us and he wanted also to get paid by Chad’s mother... But Chad’s mother explained to his older brother that she was just helping us to earn a little amount of money... The next issue was Chad’s Auntie... from the very first time I met her... I can really feel that she didn’t like me... I can see it the way she looks at me and talks to me... It’s really hard for me because I’m just living with Chad’s Family so I’m the one who just need to adjust...for them... I always cried that time... It came also to a point where in I want to live on my own... But Chad won’t allow that to happen... Chad’s mother was very kind...She always talked to me about her sister and brother just to tell me that it doesn’t mean that they don’t like me at all... And I understand what she’s trying to say... And then it came to a point that I felt so hopeless because I really want to finish my studies... but it’s been 2 years that time... I was working in a call center company for almost a year... I can feel that I’m getting older and I don’t have a chance to finish my studies... I cried every time I think that I cannot get back to school... I felt tired working and working and working for the past year... But God is so good because I never expect to...

Flash Back Part 15

Hi guys... how are you?... I just want to say sorry to all my followers in different countries for waiting so long about my blog updates. It’s just happened that a lot of things came into my life in 3 years ^^... Not all good and of course not all bad ^^.

So the last details of my last flash back was the 1^st night that Chad and I will be sleeping together “ Alone” what I mean is just the two of us. At 1^st of course I was afraid because I was only 18 years old by that time and He was already 25 years old. A lot of thoughts were running in my mind like what if he takes advantage of me… What if he rapes me... Then here it is… he prepared our sleeping area, we will be sleeping on one bed... What?????? I never slept with a guy on the same bed... But of course I have no choice. We began to lay down our bed… my heart beats faster and faster and still I’m waiting what will happen next… He starts to turn off the lights in our condo and that made me feel uncomfortable... But after hours passed... I noticed that he already fell asleep… hahaaha… Thank God, by that time I realized that he was not the kind of guy I was thinking of. He is very kind, a gentleman, God-fearing, very sweet and It means that he is the ideal man for every girl in this world...

After a month of staying in his condo... many things happened... I found a job as a sales clerk in Luggage Department in one of popular malls here in the Philippines. When I already got the job...that’s also the time I informed my family where I am exactly staying here in Manila. They seemed to understand my decision why I stalk way... I send money to them every pay day...

Then one night when Chad and I were lying on our bed alone again... He just starts calling my name as if he wants to tell something to me... I cannot forget how he was say something to me... here is the conversation.

Chad: Carmela...

Me: Yes kuya? (kuya means older brother and that’s what I call him) what is it?

Chad: ahmm nothing just forget about it...

Me: No... what is it? I know you have something to tell me...

Chad: no it’s nothing promise...

Me: I can feel it... you have something to tell me but you’re hesitating... C’mon tell me... It’s fine swear!

Chad: Can I court you? Because I love you!

Of course by that time I was very shock... I don’t know how I will react because It’s been 3 months only since my ex boyfriend and I broke up... The pain is still there... But Chad told me that he is willing to wait until my heart will be ready again to fall in love. He did everything for me just to prove that he is sincere in what he truly feels for me. At first his family doesn’t know that he is courting me. Of course I’m in the situation of moving on that time and at the same time ...I’m thinking that if ever we became in a relationship... I think that’s not a good idea because 1^st reason is he came from a rich family unlike me... I’m just a poor girl... He and his siblings studies in a very high end schools but me?? Instead of finishing my college, I have to work just to earn money for my family... It’s like a fairy tale story or a movie... Ours status in life is like heaven and earth apart... But still he proves to me that he is not the kind of guy that I am thinking of... He told me that his family will accept me as who I am...

After some time because of his sincerity I gave Chad my sweet “ YES” ^^ but at first we need to hide our relationship to his family because I’m not yet ready about their reactions regarding our relationship... I still have doubts if his family will accept me and our relationship... and if his family will still allow me to stay in the condo with him after they knew that we have relationship...

But the 1^st person who knew about our relationship is his youngest brother Beni who stayed with us in the condo. Of course he can easily suspect that we are hiding something because he is the one na lagi nming nkakasama. That’s why we told him already about our relationship... and thanks God he is not against our relationship...

So this is it. It’s really hard to pretend that he is still my older brother when his mother is with us... We cannot hold hands...it was very uncomfortable... There are times that muntik na kaming mabuking...

Then one day Chad came into our condo ... He visited her mother’s house and told her about our relationship... And...