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Hi guys! Its me again.. I think I should start introducing myself now so that you won't get bored  of me..

I'm Carmela Isla Macandili.. you can call me "Camille" for short.I'm 19 years old from San Pablo City Laguna.I came from a poor family. My mother is the one who works for us.. I have a younger sister. She is 16 years old. I graduated as a "salutatorian" during elementary and "first honorable mention" when I was high school. I love making poems & other literary skills.. I love joining beauty pageants and modeling.

I didn't finished my studies because of financial problems. I've been studying for more than a year in college taking up Hotel and Restaurant Management.. but actually I didn't love cooking.. I want to take up Bachelor of Science in Tourism. I love to travel in different countries and I wanna be a linguistic person ^^ but taking up Tourism will cost much money.

Hahaha.. anyways my life is full of challenges.. well I really don't know how I over come those trials that came into my life.. hmmm maybe because I have a powerful faith in our Almighty Father.. I still remember the darkest time in my life. My Calvary started when I was grade-IV.. I am 10 years old that time and my father need to separate to us because of his work.. he is a security guard that time.. hmm .. that time I was a candidate of Ms. Valentine program but instead of going at the coronation night.. me and my younger sister (6 yrs.old) went to night clubs and sell flowers so that we can have money  to use for the next day.

A year later when I was grade V, we transferred in my father's province (San Pablo City Laguna) and decided to live there. My father quit his job because of his health problem.. that's why my mother started to work for our living. She works as a waitress in a bar even though her work is not fitted to her health she decided to go for that. Her work was very dangerous.. sometimes hose drunkards are throwing their liquor's bottles and get some trouble.

For 8 years my mother is the one who works for us..even that time she got "breast cancer"  she needs an operation but we don't have money for that..she still working even if she's not feeling well.. that time all I can do is to pray and cry every night. I don't know what to do.. I feel useless. the saddest thing that time most of our relatives didn't help us specially when the time that we needed them most. Hahaha that's why I do believe in this saying "If you have a lot of money.. many wiil recognize you..but if you are so down and nothing left with you.. even your relatives won't recognize you" hahahaha .. Am I right?.. (bitter.. lol)

Anyways I also experienced to sell fresh fish (Tilapia) and puto (kakanin). And when I was 1st yr. college, I decided to work as a promo girl in Philip Morris sas my part time job. Then I noticed that my mother cannot afford to continue my studies in college so I decided to stop. I quit my job as a promo girl and I started to work as an assistant teacher in Great Vision Montessori School but I only earned P3000 per month & that's not enough for my family..

There's a gap between me and my father he got angry with me when I stop my studying.. he couldn't accept the facts that my mother cannot afford the expenses for my studies. My family always think that I am their only hope to have a better life someday that's why my father got angry with me.. he always told me that I have no dreams for them.. that I'm the black-sheep of our family.

I always cry that time. Of course I'd like to finish my studies.. I have many dreams for them.. from that time I got emotional stress.. I even try to kill myself because of those problems.. problems that I think I can't overcome that time. But thanks God.. God is always there to guide me.. He always made me feel that I'm not alone.. that there is light in my darkest time.. That time I wanna prove to my father that he is wrong.. I want to show him someday that I can be a successful person someday that he can be proud of.